'Interchangeable' is Out Now, LP Release Date, Mini Tour

"Interchangeable" is out TODAY on Bandcamp and all streaming services!

It's from the Red Ship LP (out June 10th on Exotic Fever Records!) last week on episode 8 of the Grit City Punk podcast! You can check that out here - it's the one featuring Pregnant Dad, the song is at the very end of the episode, along with my awesomely corny answer to "What does punk mean to you?"

'Interchangeable' is another song about the experience of providing sex work as you try to capitalize off of your own marginalization. I got requests to play roles that ranged from the demure, subservient concubine to being a stand in for a 'girlfriend' they had from the Vietnam War.

Problem was I wasn't good at playing the part - the demure, skinny, subservient Asian who was just there to please. I did my best so that I could survive, as being a sex worker was how I accommodated my brain at the time, not having known about my invisible disabilities - the autism and adhd. Had to use all tools available, including the dehumanizing shit hurled at me as I could not keep up with a normal day job. This is about the complicated emotions I experienced, the rage and pain I swallowed, imagining how "the other woman" felt, alongside the recognition of a quiet power I felt over whomever asked for such a performance.

CW: mention of sexual assault, r*pe

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I ultimately got burnt out from both sex work and the music landscape, trying to put myself out there in the weird, emotionless, very yt indie landscape. The sex work was empowering at first, after I learned to navigate the industry as an independent, but over time...it became traumatic. What ultimately made me stop was being r*ped on the job. I feel like I've mostly recovered. Now what I'm trying to recover from most is the cptsd from childhood, and from living as an undiagnosed audhder under colonized femme hood for so long. I was only recently diagnosed at 42 fucking years old

I couldn't safely share authentically about my experiences as a sex worker then. But now that there has been some distance and thanks to the hard work the sex work communities have done to spread awareness, I can.

Red Ship was first released in 2011 but am reissuing it, remixed and augmented, now that I feel safe to tell my story authentically. This song was not on the original, it's one of the four new tracks written in the last couple of years. My Princessed bandmate Meagan Perkins played bass, TJ Lipple (Aloha) played drums, and I did guitars and vox. This song was how I learned to record with ableton but also how I know I'm never using ableton again. I proudly prefer audacity!

Check out the shows page for info on my upcoming tour! For the east coast dates, I'll have Meagan Perkins (Waxing Crone, Princessed) on bass and Amy Shapiro on drums (Kitchenette, Princessed) and Jenny Petrow on cello.

It feels good to share my truth authentically.