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  • Writer's pictureStar Matriarch

You're Free (With Me) Is Out

Today, I'm celebrating and honoring myself by releasing the filial and karmic debt I've accrued, acknowledging that my ancestors are dead and don't give a shit about what I do with my life.


I know that being a musician and having been a sex worker is not 'honorable' to my family. But I need to live for myself, my mental health is just as valuable. My sense of obligation isn't completely gone anyway, I see this as a way to show up for my kids. By unburdening myself to be fully present with them, and learning to live more authentically.


I struggle with adopting beliefs that my family has about filial piety and ancestor worship, but that does not mean their beliefs are invalid. They absolutely are! But I am honoring myself by being honest. Maybe it's my autism that makes me skeptical, or the drive for autonomy (also an autism thing I hear).


I also release the guilt from disappointing my parents. I hate that it's seen as a sort of 'win' for white supremacy in my eyes, turning my back on my culture. But I can't lie to myself, and I can't put pressure on myself anymore for something that doesn't resonate.


The song can be streamed on Spotify or anywhere really, and you can download from Bandcamp

Carol Bui: vocals, guitar, drums,

percussion, lyrics, composition

Aaron Leitko: bass

TJ Lipple: Engineering, Mixing

Vlado Meller: Mastering

RELEASE DATE: MAY 23, 2023

FORMAT: DIGITAL

CATALOG # EXF073

Cover ART by HARUKA SATO

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